“Like the loss of sunlight on a cloudy afternoon. Gone too soon.”

Holiday’s over and college has already starting. Somehow i was at loss for excitement of this beginning of new semester. There are so many new things i have experienced during this holiday: Pangandaran backpacking, Central Java backpacking, riding an economy-class public train, Dieng trekking, tasting Tengkleng Kwali, went to Bali w/my lil sis, having lunch at Jimbaran and Bebek Bengil, creating a photoblog, being an LO for my senior’s graduation day, assigning my lil sis to Kumon, learning to be a stage manager at a campus orientation program, Jakarta date w/ Fendi, Dufan w/ college friends.. Its all been fun. But then again, i was at loss for excitement to face this new semester.. And then i heard that terrible news: a friend of mine is lost, drifted at Pangandaran sea.

His name is Yogie. A friend of mine at college. My campus life will never ever be the same, Yog. Since theres no more you now. I hate goodbyes. I hate it more when its too soon. But, i know we all gotta be strong, right, Yog? We shall always smile. Just like my memories of you have taught me :) Goodbye, Yogie..

Dan akhir-akhir ini gw jadi lebih bisa mengapresiasi lagu dan video klip karya Michael Jackson yang berjudul Gone Too Soon.
Lagu ini didedikasikan MJ untuk Ryan White, pemuda asal AS yang divonis AIDS dan meninggal pada usia 18 tahun..

Like A Comet
Blazing ‘Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

Like A Rainbow
Fading In The Twinkling Of An Eye
Gone Too Soon

Shiny And Sparkly
And Splendidly Bright
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like The Loss Of Sunlight
On A Cloudy Afternoon
Gone Too Soon

Like A Castle
Built Upon A Sandy Beach
Gone Too Soon

Like A Perfect Flower
That Is Just Beyond Your Reach
Gone Too Soon

Born To Amuse, To Inspire, To Delight
Here One Day
Gone One Night

Like A Sunset
Dying With The Rising Of The Moon
Gone Too Soon

Gone Too Soon – Michael Jackson

The Nanny

Its my all time fave TV series! You all should watch it, too. I bet you’ll like it =) I have always thought that The Nanny was a UK TV series but oh how i was so wrong. Even the setting itself is in New York’s upper east side! (Oh and yes, these are the upper east siders back from the 90s. Blair Waldorf was still at primary school then.) Probably because some of its leading characters speak in British accent that made me think the other way.

Its a situation comedy about a nanny working for a family which the mother has passed away, the father is a loving rich Broadway producer, and the children are three kids with each unique lovable character. There are also a super hillarious butler and this cocky lady which patners the father at work. The hints are hillarious jokes and mesmerizing plot between the nanny and the father ^^ oh i might have described it unwell. You just go and watch it!

Check crywishes’ Youtube Channel for complete episodes. Or just tune in to Hallmark channel ;)

I cant choose which line i’d use as post-title. Its all oh so lovable and feels right! ♥ =D

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
Can’t do it alone I’ve tried
and I don’t know why

Slow it down make it stop
or else my heart is going to pop
‘cuz it’s too much, yeah it’s a lot
to be something I’m not

I’m a fool out of love
‘Coz I just can’t get enough

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
I can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy The Show

The sun is hot in the sky
just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It’s a joke nobody knows
They’ve got a ticket to that show …yeah

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
Can’t do it alone I’ve tried
and I don’t know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
it’s bringing me down I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
oh oh
Just enjoy the show
oh oh

I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
Can’t do it alone I’ve tried
And I don’t know why

I am just a little girl lost in the moment
I’m so scared but I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Dum de dum dudum de dum
Just enjoy The Show

Dum de dum dudum de dum
Just enjoy The Show

I want my money back (3x)
Just enjoy The Show

I want my money back (3x)
Just enjoy The Show

The Show – Lenka

I wish i could just let it all go and just enjoy the show

English? Bahasa Indonesia? Or both? Oh how i still cant decide :(

I used to write blog posts in whatever the language i felt like to. When i felt like writing in bahasa Indonesia i wrote in bahasa Indonesia. When i felt like writing in english i wrote in english. And most oftenly i wrote in both languages, mixed it, not giving a damn of proper constantness.

Recently (since the past few months), i want my blog to be unilingual. I keep writing in english. But every now and then im having the urge to shout my thoughts in bahasa Indonesia and I just stuck.

I dont know.. I’ll probably just go back to my old manner, not giving a damn of proper constantness -____-

Probably the ultimate reason why im such a melancholist -_-

At times i feel like theres too many bad things happen in this world that i find it unappropriate for me to even think of having any fun -_-

And so i stay gloomy..as if it would solve any problem. But it wouldnt. And suddenly im becoming the problem itself -_-

“With you and God who’s my sunlight I bloom and grow so beautifully.”

My mood is currently going uphill and the posts are about to get corny. Skip it for your life! :p

Baby I love you
You are my life
My happiest moments weren’t complete
If you weren’t by my side
You’re my relation
In connection to the sun
With you next to me
There’s no darkness I can’t overcome
You are my raindrop
I am the seed
With you and God, who’s my sunlight
I bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby, I’m so proud
So proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and mixed up world

I am in love with you
You set me free
I can’t do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I’m Dangerously In Love with you
I’ll never leave
Just keep lovin’ me
The way I love you loving me

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am
Baby you were my man
I know it ain’t easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
Thought of all my love for you
sometimes make me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I’m grateful
To have you by my side

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in Love – Beyonce

How i ♥ Beyonce’s lyrics! She shouts feminism spirit so well in songs like Independent Woman, Irreplaceable, or Listen. Yet still she nails it when it comes to describing an exaggeration of love from a point of view of a conquered woman’s heart. Above lyric -Dangerously in Love- is one example. See the live video here. I love Halo, too! And who doesnt like Crazy in Love?